This past week
a big part of me was lost and since I can’t find anything that’ll replace
those, I have been, well I’ll just say, wasting time?
Last Sunday, We
visited a family friend and were not really planning to go to SM. Then we accidentally
attended or watched a mall show for my mom loves going to the mall. My mom,
sisters and I have never seen nor heard about them but we were curious so we
watched them. They’re called The 5ive. Yes, we were entertained not with their
talent (sorry!) and those screaming die-hard fans but with their looks and nice
personality. We liked them and yeah. The next day, they were still on our minds
and I was happy for I have never liked a Filipino boy band before. We enjoyed
searching them on the internet because they were new, lol, (but we’re not
addicted to them and we’re not die-hard fans)it’s like we met rising stars and
found something to be busy with. But
then, the sun set and I have received tremendously bothering news. My twin and I found out that the university
we wanted to study in is having their College Entrance Exam next month and the
deadline for application was June, plus, they are the only university that has
that course. So yeah, we missed it and we weren't informed about the early application
and exam. I have been looking forward for it ever since and now I have to
choose a different path or let’s just say a different university. So, instead
of reviewing and studying hard, knowing that the course that I will take up in
some other university won’t be having an entrance exam, I wasted so much time
on the internet doing, (for me, before)irrelevant stuff.
The next few
days, still that same week, my twin and I saw brilliant opportunities on the
internet, an audition/screening of what we have been wanting since 12, yes, 12
years old. We were soooooooooo excited and made little plans and to-do’s but
then when we told our mom, she said NO. Another heartbreak L . I was soooooooo sad
that I thought that God was punishing me or something; I thought I was the
unluckiest teen in the world. What I had in mind was that all the things that I
want and I dream for are always stolen or taken away from me. But since I’m a
Virgo, Positive, Clean and Thoughtful, lol, I accepted all of it and felt happy.
The third
heartbreak was just last night. I chatted with my online crush, my crush that I
really liked because we share the same hobbies and we understand each other, in
a way. So last night, I found out that he already has a girlfriend. Yes, a girlfriend.
I wasn’t that hurt but I was shocked for not knowing it. He is a man of few words but he writes well.
Is that even right? Pffff. Then we talked about him and his girlfriend, such
private matters. Every second of the time we’re chatting I was moving on and
thinking he might be just a very good friend to me, that’s all. I was a little
hurt because I expected a lot of things. I thought as the time flows, we’ll be
talking about college stuff (since we’ll be taking college at the same time),
and will still be in touch, until we graduate. But I realized he has his own
life and his own lovelife.
I just thought
that maybe all of this happened because God has better plans for me. I just think that everything really happens
for a reason, I also stick to that quote for I don’t want to be depressed and
stressed. I mean it’ll be up to you if you forever bury that heartbreak, there
will be a lot of doors that will open for each one of us. “For every door that
shuts, ten will open”. You might think I’m pathetic in some ways but that’s
just me, all I can say is that I had enough in a week. Who knows, next week
might be filled with big surprises.
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