Deprivation, Don't let it destroy you.

        Every person has misfortunes in life, every person has things they never had that causes them to make decisions and selfish choices in order to gain it. Everybody has free will and it's our choices that becomes our destiny and path in life.
         I hate to admit that I have proven the fact that I am born with an ability to understand, to know, to be aware of, or to get the picture of why people act in certain ways, in certain circumstances. In my a decade and a half on living this life, I can say that I have met different people that has different beginnings, I don't jump to conclusions on how their stories are going to end, nobody knows what's gonna happen next and I'm not fond of assuming good or bad things that'll happen on someone else's life, but I hate the thing that I can understand how someone feels, and can sympathize with them so easily that I get so depressed and I end up shutting up and not able to say how I feel and what I also have been through.
         While people are still young, they take steps towards what's gonna happen in their future, "To know the future is to invent it." Each one of us may or may have experienced Deprivation whether we know it or not, and once a person is deprived he think of ways, strives hard and does things sometimes uncontrollable anymore.
           I'm referring to someone I don't want to name. I pity him so much but I feel angry at the same time, His parents deprived him of Love, Attention, Care and Money. He had fun while he was young, he didn't tried to perform well in school, and wasted too much time on his hobbies and planned to do it for a living. But he failed. Now he struggled again to raise his family from his mistakes in a way that he breaks the law, make less fortunate people suffer by not sympathizing them in any way and puts price in anything that can be shared willingly. To tell the truth he had done something that made a deep scar in my memory and in my life. Now all I feel for him is wrath and hatred. I don't want to hate him and/or his family but you can't blame me, He is an evil. But as I said, I think before I feel and ingrain rage in my innocent heart. I just keep on thinking that I am not as miserable as he and his family. I am just being thankful that I didn't have to go through what he has been through. And now Life is asking payment for his wrongdoings and I don't know, it's either he'll do the right thing now or he'll end up in hell.
           I am coming clean, I also have things that I am deprived of, like freedom and recognition. I am deprived of equality and justice. I live in an environment filled with indignation and I always bury in my mind that in the future I'll be successful and possess what I really deserve. But what I also promise myself is that I'm never gonna do something that will make my life miserable and unpleasant. Deprivation, I won't let it destroy me.

Woods, Nails and Everything in between.

        Being different is cool, I guess. Not just fitting in to what's trending or just gowing with the flow of what's new. I am different and I'm happy about it, I like things that my peers doesn't really notice or appreciate, and that little yet marvelous thing is called CARPENTRY.

       I know it seems funny but for me it is the coolest thing ever! Well there are things that I find very cool and I'm the kind of person that is fond of being fascinated. I have met different kinds of people with different types or level of fascination. I have met people who gets really fascinated with the things I just commonly see in a daily basis. and I have met people who doesn't get fascinated at all, because they have seen every little detail in their everyday lives. and Me, I'm just in between them. :)

          I appreciate little things with huge purpose, I give appreciation and, let's say, attention to smaller things because these days people doesn't give a F*ck to anything tiny yet relevant anymore, Let us say a nail, Yesterday I saw a nail on the ground, I picked it up and I examined it, The first thing I thought was How many nails do they make in a day or in a year? I mean, once someone bought a pack of nails, no one will
ever see it again, because Duh! LOOK AROUND. Look at the table you're using,  the cabinets, the chairs, the doors, the stairs and a thousand more. all you can see now are the heads of the nails and they bind woods and heavy stuffs to make our lives easy and comfortable yet no one notices them.

          My grandfather who is now 60 plus years old and still has abs :D is the greatest carpenter I have ever seen!. I'm not bragging about my lolo but he didn't get to learn carpentry in school he just helps his dad and his uncles before and now he's the one making small houses and stores. I was watching him doing his thing last week and I was gobsmacked. as in gobsmacked. I don't know why but he works with good routine and harmony, everything seems going in the right places and right duties. Then BOOM! There goes your tiny building. :)

           In the future, I don't want to be a carpenter but I would like my future sons and / or daughters to know how to build houses like how my granpa does LOL, is that even right? Gosh that's funny.

A little part of me

         I don't know how to start this but I just want you to know that you are in a tiny silent place in the world wide web that has a soft spot in my heart. I have previous blog posts that eventually disappeared due to the reason that they seem immature and gibberish.
       
         I am turning 16 on the 19th of September and I have faced different kinds of hardships and challenges, if you are thinking that what I'm referring to is my Love Life, you have mistaken, for I don't really have much story to tell about my Love Life because of the microscopic reason yet a big deal to others, that I have never been in a relationship before. End of.
       
         As I was saying, I have faced struggles and obstacles in life, I'll start on how I think and how I feel in certain situations. Just so you know, I'm a lady filled with bright visions in life. I'm an OPTIMIST. I see every little problem or mistake an opportunity. I can fight stress to the level that people are starting to hate me for still being so positive and cheerful in times that there's really nothing to do but weep and give up. For me I'm just being strong and wise, because being unmoved is giving another try to make everything alright; and as for them they think I´m stupid, they think I don't know or I'm not aware of what's happening around me, that that is not the time to be enthusiastic and confident. They hate me because they ain't me. They don't see things in the way I see them. They can't manage difficulties the way I can. I'm not boastful, I'm just Positive. Yes, I cry, and in every tear that drops I feel stronger and wiser.
       
         I still have a lot of things in my mind, and most of the time it stays there. Also, I'm an introvert. I don't really like people knowing what I have in mind. There's only one person I tell everything to and that's my twin
sister. She knows my bad side and my angelic side so if you wanna know more about me you should consult her lol. :)